Just
thinking about exercising is a struggle most of the time. All the mental energy
that goes into picturing me going for a run or lifting weights is enough to
make my stomach curl into the most uncomfortable of knots.
I
used to be a “workout person.” In elementary school – and especially in high
school – I was always active. Whether it was lifting weights or training on my
own for an upcoming sports season, you couldn’t pay me to sit down as long as I
could get up and run. I wouldn’t even get a job in the summer. I’d sign up for
three or four different leagues spanning multiple sports, and I’d have an
exercise-related commitment nearly every single day. A couple of hours of
exercise a day equates to a full time job, right?
Then
college hit. Does anybody else remember those self-pledges not to gain the
freshman fifteen? What about all those New Years’ Resolutions to “get back in
the swing of things” for beach season? And freshman year that was with residual
motivation carrying over from high school. The deeper and deeper I trudged into
the bowels of collegiate life, the further and further away from the bright
light of exercise I slogged. Sure, I’d go for a swim every now and again. Hell,
I might even do some pushups in my dorm room before rounding out my workout
with a hearty bag of Cooler Ranch Doritos. But who was I kidding? I knew I’d
peaked. My exercise trajectory slipped from working out every day, to working
out a couple days a week, to – before I knew it – telling myself that taking
the stairs and walking places burned plenty of calories. Now I get a little
winded going up a flight of stairs. My high school self would be so proud.
Working
out is hard. It’s a drag. It’s a mental and physical drain. But there are some
good things about it, I must grudgingly admit. Like how, after you do it a
couple times, you feel this freshness about you for the rest of the day, like
you’ve done something worth
doing, something to better yourself that makes you feel good. Or how it can
relieve stress and help you live longer. Those two aren’t bad. I’d like a
little less stress and a little more life in my life, I suppose. The best is
that it curbs – and yes, possibly even prevents – depression. No one wants to
be sad all the time. So the next time you think about how hard working out is,
think about just how much better you could be feeling. I started working out
again the summer going into my last semester of college, and I haven’t looked
back. Who knows what it could do for you? Sure, this won’t make your physical
workout any easier, but it might remove a few of those mental chains that are
holding you back. And that’s a start.